posting has been hard

Hey guys how are you... posting has been hard lately. The goverment has had me stretched in 99 differnt directions and my grandma recently made it out of surgery and well i even had a little bit of romance in my life. Now that just mixes it all up if ya ask me. How do i start.... Well lets see.. the goverment has had me going from place to place. I was on the west coast for about 2weeks..then i was in the midwest...then back to louisiana, but my stuff is up in Indiana where i am now. My poor doggie has been all over the United States and i think that my doggie is getting used to living the rock star life. Yea we call it the rock star life when we move so much. I have been doing everything from paperwork, to admin work to knock down drag out desert field ops. Honestly, i am tired. I am rough, rugged and raw. Tonite i slept in the damn tub up here in Indy for about a hour and a half and i didnt even know i was sleep. I am just exhausted. I am past exhausted. I am running on empty two tanks ago. I sleep very little and i work alot. I am not a coffee drinker, so the people around Indy are wondering how im still standing. Maybe its just one of those things ya know. Kinda unexplained. I look at Iraq and the shape that we are in, and im just amazed at how i made it out alive. People like Holli and Suz and Mamma Erin now how it was. I ran on little energy and i made it. Even though Holli dislikes me and Erin and the crew doesnt respond to me anymore due to the things that happened a while ago between Holli and i, they are a part of my life. Well they were from the start, but they departed for there own reasons. I sit back and reflect and look at the fact that some true hard core friends are there. Man i have never ever ever met Suz, Wegrit or Mamma...and even Pilot Mom before, but just seeing there name on aemail is like having a piece of chocloate cake when your on a diet. It just makes you feel good. I thank them for that. Suz, Wegrit and Mamma can never be repaid for the debt that i owe them. They trully brought me home. Home in one piece. Just like a rock star, we military people have tons of friends or so called friends that come and go, but people like those three that i just named have been there through it all and i can never thank them enough. I wish that one day that i could just meet em and tell them thank you. Without them, i wouldnt be able to write this here...

As far as granny goes, she is doing awesome. Man shes a trooper. She bounces back from anything. I hope she lives to be a hundred. One of the true things that i want, is to give her a grandbaby. I know she wont be around for long, but i hope and i pray that i can give her that. I mean she is my grandma. I would do anything for her. She is just awesome. For the people who read my blog(some respond on the blog and some respond email) you know how she was. *smile* She is just awesome....

As far as the love life romance goes...well it goes... I thought for a little while that i would get back with the girl who kinda sorta lied to me about valentines, but i just realized that you cant make people want what you want. They have to want it because it is what they want. So i gave up on that. I mean she is cute and sexy and her body is just....*drools* but if she dont want what i want then its all null and void. So i went out on a couple of dates and i found this chic by the name of elizabeth to be pretty intresting. I am tired of being hurt, and well i guess we will see what happens from here...

Thanks for all of your support